Strange title but bear with me.
I saw a posting earlier this week that linked to an essay about why will power is not enough. I have said this before and I totally agree. But what really caught my eye, and my imagination, was his solution.
And before anyone asks I don't have the link or remember where I saw it. The essay itself was not all that interesting and much like many Alpha items, like NMMNG, %95 of it seemed like filler.
Anyway the basic point was that we should strive to change our inner selves, or possibly release our inner selves to the outside world.
He used the basic concept of someone who looks at a certain food item and can say to themselves "I am not the type of person who would eat that" or something to that effect.
Earlier today I was hungry and had eaten my lunch hours ago (some days are just eating days) and decided to go to Wawa. For those who are not from the North East United States Wawa is a convenience store selling coffee, snacks, sandwiches, etc....you get the idea. I was pondering what to get and it just really struck me how much effort it is to not each something that is not healthy.
I can admit that I have spent many years struggling with my love of junk food. Specifically snack cake types of items. I have never really been a big candy person but offer me a single serving pie and I act like a crack whore.
But then let's look at some other areas of my life and see if I can figure something out. I have never driven drunk. No matter how much I drink, or have drunk, I would never and have never gotten behind the wheel of a car. No matter what is going on that is just something I will never do. I would also never strike a woman. Now to be honest I have never struck a man either but I will talk about a woman. There is nothing, short of needing to physically defend my family, that would bring me to raise my hand to a female.
I would never drive drunk, or strike a woman, because that is not who I am. There is no struggle with me. There is no scenario where either would ever happen and writing this takes no effort. It is who I am. Period. That's it.
But then here I was, standing in front of shelves and shelves of food I should not eat struggling. Now, I clearly understand that here in the US driving drunk and hitting another person can both get you in a lot of trouble while eating like crap only makes me fat, but it's still an interesting observation.
And I think it's also a great chance to learn something. Why can't I, and all of us who want to change the way we eat, look at the food in the same way we look at other behaviors. I think my problem is I am looking at food and trying to mold the way I think to control it. I think, like the original author talked about, I need to look inside myself and figure out why I CAN eat crap. Despite knowing that I should not be doing this, like driving drunk, I will still eat those snack pies.
Much like taking the Red Pill I think this is just something that I need to close my eyes and do. No longer will I allow myself to struggle with food choices. I will believe that these things are just things that I do not eat and that is it. Like driving drunk or striking a woman, that is not who I am and there is nothing to struggle with anymore.
Easier said, or written, then done I think but if any of this were easy all of us would be dominating every aspect of our lives.